I was relieved from my full-time position at the beginning of this month. I say relieved because the details don't really matter... the feeling does.
I am frustrated that I have no financial plan, but I feel better to not report to toxic leaders who don't know my full name or only want to be corporate bullies.
The situation had become so toxic that it became untenable.
In the middle of July, I cried on my couch sharing with a friend, that I didn't know how I could leave the role because I felt so much obligation. However, I knew burnout was right around the corner. I had been there for more than ten years. I didn't even know how to leave in a respectful way because of those I reported to.
Ever since the RIF in January, I knew my days were numbered. It was painfully obvious that my direct leadership didn't respect or appreciate me. No one lasted more than a year in the role, there was no reason that I would be different.
What has this situation taught me?
Well, I am once again evaluating what I feel is most important and who is supporting me during this traumatic experience.
I'm also selecting what I want to move forward with and it's not exactly the same as what I thought. I am considering switching industries ... but honestly right now, I am just trying to heal my soul.
